chapter 18

The next morning I woke up to an empty house. Sid must have gone home for his Range Rover was gone and so was he. I went into the kitchen to make breakfast when I decided to invite Kris over to talk. I ran upstairs to grab my phone. When I woke up this morning I hadnt realized that I had two unread texts.

"Hey. Sorry I had to leave before breakfast. See you ay parade. Offer still stands!! -sid"

the second one was from Kris.

"Good morning."

I decided to text Sidney back first.

"Oh well It is fine. But you are missing the 'great blueberry muffins and pancakes'."

Then texted Kris.

"Hey good morning. Can you come over?"

As I was walking down the stairs to finish what I started I got a text.

"Ugh why do you have to make the good stuff when I am NOT THERE-sid."

"Because you arent here to eat it all."

I finished making the pancakes while the muffins were still in the oven.

"you are calling me fat eh? well at least save me some?-sid"

"I am not. but I will try."

Then Kris FINALLY texted me back.

"I am on my way."

"Good I made breakfast if you didnt eat yet."

As I set the stuff on the table I realzied I hadnt texted Evgeni yet.

I scrolled through my contacts and decided I would call instead.

"Hello..."

"Awe. Were you alseep?"

"No I up. Was layin bed."

"Oh okay. well i wanted to call and tell you good morning. An that I will see you in a few hours."

"Okay morning. See then. Bye?" he questioned.

"Good bye geno. Go back to sleep." I laughed.

"I love you." He whisper almost afraid to say it.

i sat there silently thinking to make sure it was the first time he had said it. Except for the note.

"Geno you said it first." I squealed.

"I know. Me do though."

"I love you two."

"See you later."

"Bye."

I hung up the phone with the biggest smile on my face. I wanted to hear him say it again. I have waited so long for that. Almost 2years if you dont count the small break up. Kris was knocking at the door a few minutes later.

"Come in." I yelled from the kitchen as I took out the muffins.

"Ahh do I smell those famous muffins."

"Yes. yes you do." I laughed

i sat the plate down before he hugged me and then took his seat.

"I am glad you invited me over. This is my favorite food that you Crosby's make and I am starving."

"Yeah it is my favorite to." I looked over at him. "but i didnt just invite you over for the food. I need to talk to you about somethings."

"Alright. Go ahead." He put down his fork an stared intentlly at me.

"Last night Evgeni and I made up. We settled EVERYTHING. An we are back together. I am really sorry Kris because there was something there. It is just I am in love with Evgeni. An always have. I still want to remain close with you. Just for now it has to be friends. An only friends."

"Alrighty I understand. I knew you would choose him if it came down to it. Who wouldnt choose the person you were with for like 2 years. An I want to remain as close as possible I will always be here for you.I want to be that someone you can talk to no matter what time it is. I will always be here. Even if it is just friends." He smiled at me grabbing his fork. " these are better then Trina's."

chapter 18

Thank you for all the comments they make me write faster. :] Much ablide....! An I am also up at Dance camp. Miami University, Okford ohio.:] So yeah.... comment and make me unbored when i come to my room.

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I got ready, grabbed a rose out of each basket and was on my way out the door with out saying a word to anyone. Halfway down the street Renaee texted me....

"You okay?"

"DT." Are code for dont tell or show anyone what I am about to say.

"Okay."

"I am going to Genos. Will let know how goes."

"Alrighty, ILY Girly. Be careful:]"

"You two.:}"

Geno must have heard me pull in cause he coming from the backyard out the pool gate.

"missed you." He gave me a huge hug, Lifting me off the ground.

"Missed you two." I smiled. " Can we talk now?"

"Yeah. Inside or out?"

"Inside."

Walking inside I saw that Geno must have had the cleaners just here. The carpets were just done. It made me not want to walk on them. An the house had a diffrent smell to it.

He must have seen the confusion in my face.

"Cleaners. Big mess. Sorry."

"It's fine." I smirked. "I got something for you." I sat my purse down on the table.

"What you got?" He looked at me intrigued.

I pulled out the two roses and handed them to him.

"My flowers!?"

"Yup. But why so many."

"One for everytime I have messed up and every hour this past couple of weeks that I wasnt with you." I felt so guilty for getting rid of the flowers at that point. Because EVERY single one ment something.

"Awh. That was so cute."

"I know. Just think. Come out. I do." He laughed sitting down on the coach.

"So you want to go first or me?"

"Welll...I....Uh....Got a question."

"Alright."

"What go on with Max and Kris?"

"Well I guess Kris really likes me. But I am not ready for him right now. An he completley understands. An Max honestly I wouldnt mind being with him. But I really couldnt trust him when he was on the road to be honest. As bad as that sounds."

"Alright, want to get you back." He looked at me then down.

I moved over closer to him then sat down.

"Evgeni. I have missed you I want to try again. But if something like this is gonna happen I want to know ahead of time."

"I tell you EVERYTHING" He smiled putting his arm around me.

"Okay and there is another condition." He tilted his head to the side. "No more Oksana."

"Not want her. Want you." He started tickleing me.

"Good." I said after he stopped. "Cause I want things back to normal."

"So..." He smiled. "parade tommarow."

"Yeah I know." I laughed.

"You ride with me?" He looked away when I looked towards the ground.

"Of course. Unless Sid has other plans."

"Okay. rather ride with him. You can. I understand. You to close."

They only think I could think to do was Kiss him and that is exacually what I did. Before I knew it we were back in his room doing what we both rightfully deserved.

It wasnt till around 7 that we realized how long it took us. We both jumped in the shower after ready texts about parties an people wondering where we were. Seeing no one knew but Renaee they were worried neither of us answered.

I left Evgeni at his house, reasurring him that I would met up with him later. I called Sid first to see where he was.

"Where the hell have you been? I called and texted you but you didnt answer me I have been looking for you for hours!!!" He screamed into the phone.

"Sorry. Where are you? we need to talk about where I was." I laughed to myself.

"At your house waiting for YOU TO COME HOME." He yelled again.

"Alright I am about 10 minutes away I will see you then."

"Wait ten minutes? That's Sewickley."

I hung up asap!

When I pulled up he came rushing out to make sure I was in one piece.

"Sidney Patrick. I am fine. I promise."

"Alright. How was GENO?" He said in a weird voice.

"How did you know."

"I did the math. He lives ten minuted from here."

"Oh."

"Mhm. But I guess you guys are good. Since you must have had make-up sex." He quinged thinking about it. "Either that or you went for a swim." He squirmed all the way inside.

All I could do was laugh. He will never lose those pictures in his head.

chapter 17

Kris an I's hands slipped apart as I walked out the door with Jordan. Not lisening to Gronks warning Kris followed right behind. As I reached the bottom of the steps It was very quite, excpet a little arguering I could hear coming from outside. Jordan opened the front door. An everything fell silent. I couldnt believe what I was seeing. 24 baskets of a dozen roses of every color, sitting on my front porch an my walk. Max was fighting witht the delivery guy who wouldnt leave till I signed hie paper thingy. So I did as told so he would shut the hell up.



I got in to a train of thought. Just staring at all the flowers. When I noticed that Max was talking to me.

"Do you wannt anything from him? Cause honestly I would just like to destroy them all." I glared at him, he caught it and laughed. "Roses are corny."

His face when he said that brought me down to the ground I was laughing so hard.

"umm." I thought to my self. "Yeah take them somewhere that could use them." I flashed him a smile while grabbing a basket of white ones with blue glitter at the top. An yellow with black glitter. "Except these."

"Anything for you babe."

I laughed walking back into the house.

I pulled out my phone and decided that it was time to talk. I turned to look at everyone following me like lost puppys.

"EVERYONE stay down here. I gotta do something." I turned on my heel and headed up the stairs.





Once in my room I locked the door and went in to the bathroom and also locked that door as the phone rang. A few rings later an I heard the voicemail come on. I pressed end, an slid down the wall to the floor burying my face in my hands.

About 3minutes later my phone rang. Not looking to see who it was I answered.

"H-Hello."

"you okay? something wrong?" A voice I reconized and missed rang out trough the phone.

"Geno!" I screamed. "I am fine. Why did you leave." I settled down.

"I a-a meeting." he stuttered.

"It is okay you dont have to tell the truth." I sighed putting my hand on my forehead as I leaned back on the wall.

"No. Dont want mad at me."

"Why....Oh nevermind I know why.."

"Not her. Made go." I smiled at the thought of him kicking her out. "For good." He added. "I sorry left. Not want you to..." he trailed of.

Awkward silences bug me so badly so I spoke up...

"Oh okay and I didnt get to finish what I was going to say."

"That what afriad of." He sounded scared. " Met again? try over, Me. You?"

"Ummm where?"

"come home!"

I though about it for a minute that realized that he had ment his house.

"mean my house." He said inocently.

"Yeah. about 20minutes?"

"Good. see you then."

just some news...

okay so i was looking at pictures of tyler kennedy on the hall of fame site.

and one poped up with tk and a blond girl....(kelsey)

Did anyone know that TK had a girl?

SHE IS really PRETTY!

chapter 16

Sarge walked over an said, "sorry to intrude but he wanted me to give you this."

I looked over and he was gone. I could feel my heart breaking even more. Did he not want to work this out??

"He had to go to a meeting." Sarge said immediatley after seeing me look up at him.

I looked down on the table as Sergei walked away.

"I'll meet you in the car?" Sid questioned. I just shook my head up and down.

After about 5 minutes of decideing weither or not to open it, I did. Gonch must have helped him for it was full sentences.

























'Ciera,

Before Oksana had come, I had planned a BIG surprise for you. I decided I was going to do this back in Detriot. I still want to give you this surprise but I am not sure that you will accept it now...I want you to let me show you exacually how I feel. I know you are stubbern. But Babe I miss you. I want to talk more in person. We wrote this last night just in case you would get mad at me. Since you are reading it you must be mad. Please call or text me when you are ready to talk about this better. An if you would rather be with Kris or Maax or any other guy. It is okay. I am just happy I got to spend the time I did with you. As long as you are happy I will try and be happy for you.
Evgeni.'

I went back to met Sid at the car with tear rolling down my face. He wrapped me in his arms and took the letter from me.

"Are you okay?"

No answer so I guess he just read it as i cried in to his chest.

"Wow, That is really Deep at times. Do you want to talk to him more?" he asked lifting my head up.

"Kind of." I sobbed.

He opened my door and I jumped in kicking off my shoes and pulling up my knees.

Back at the house, Everyone was still there as if they knew something was going to happen. Renaee came running along with Kris and Max at her side. I ran up the stairs trying to avoid looking at anyone. Renaee was the only one to follow.

"What happened? Why had and have you been crying?"

No words came out. I just slowly handed the letter to her. She began reading it and by watching her expressions on her face I could tell what part she was on.

"Omg. Did you call or anything?" she asked frantically.

"Nope. We met at the Cafe and Sid and Sarge tried to help us work it out but Geno had to leave. An then Gonch gave me that."

"Can I call hi--" she was cut off by a knock at the door.

"It's me Sid."

She unlocked the door. But Kris and Max had walked out from behind him. I buried my face in the pillow.

"Sorry they forced me." Sid apologized. "They got alot of dirt on me."

"It's fine. Calm down goof ball." i sobbed into the pillow.

"Darling, Beautiful. Tell Maxie what's wrong." He sat beside me.

I couldnt help but laugh at his voice and the fact he called him self 'Maxie'. I moved the pillow, wiped my eyes, and handed them the note.

Kris read it first by the look in his eyes I knew something had changed in him. Max had a diffrent reaction, more of a 'I am sorry' look mixed with a 'Fuck you man' look.

After a long silence Max stormed off downstairs to tell the other. I dont know why he was so mad. Sidney took Renaee out of the room to talk about something obviously me since they couldnt say it in front of me, Just leaving Kris and I alone.

"I'm gonna make this easy for yo---" I cut him off.

"No lisen. Tangers, I like you alot and I always have ever since Sid introduced me to you guys. But it is just really hard with you guys being teammates right now and then.." I trailed off. Unsure of what to say next. He pulled me closer.

"I like you to and everyone can see that including Evgeni. Which is why this is so diffrent for me. I am usually the guy who is always shy around people. Mostly girls, but with you it is just so diffrent. I dont even know how to react when I am around you. You send this rush all through my body. But I know how you feel about Evgeni and it is the same you always have. That is why I will make it easy for you. I will wait for you. Till you realize that you are ment to be with me. An I can take it. I promise."

He gave me the biggest hug as i whispered "Thank you."

Jordan walked in right on cue as if he was sitting out side of the door waiting and lisening to are conversation.

"Umm Ciera you might want to come downstairs." he hesitated. " Kris you might want to stay up here."

"Huh?" we both looked at him.

"There is something you need to see. But I dont think that you would want to Tangers."

chapter 15

I laid across the bed putting my head where he had been laying. The sheets smelled SOOOO good, that I didnt want to move. Then I felt someone grab my hand and pull me up.

"We should do this more often." He smiled. " Just not with Max."

He grabbed my hand and led me out of the room.

"Wait." I stopped. "Where are we going?"

"I am going to make you breakfast. So dont make me drag you."

I took a peak into the living room to see that Chris and Sidney were sleeping on the coach. An Jordan was on the floor, it looked like he had been kicked off of the coach by one of the two still remaining. Even though Kris, Max, and I had been the only ones up before he started cooking everyone was up as soon as the smell seeped through the rest of the house.

"How was your night sexy?" Max asked with his 'gets em everytime smile' across his face.

I rolled my eyes but smirked, "Terrible I woke up looking at Kris instead of you!" I pouted turning to him.

I dont think I have ever seen someones face light up while another spun around like he was a ballerina.

"But then I turned to see you and it got WAY worse." I added. "Im just fucking with you Max. My night and morning was good."

"Whatever girl you know you want me. I mean who wouldnt? I am Max Talbot SUPER STAR."

"WHAT THE FUCK!!!" I jumped and turned to see Sidney flustered and Red. "What the hell were you doing in her bed?"

"Dude calm down. Kris was there to. An plus nothing happened."

"I dont care. An I told Kris he co--" I cut him off.

"By the way What The Hell was that about???"

"I though you could use some company. I talked to him about how he feels. An I dont know I guess I just slipped up." He slowly looked down at the ground.

I sternley lifted his head. "Well dont yell at Max If you let Kris. Now apologize to one of your best friends."

"I know . I am Sorry Maxie."They hugged each other it was so cute."Everyone just stay away from her. GOT IT!"

We met Geno. He was wearing Jeans with rips at the top and on the back with a light blue Penguins T-shirt an a black hat pulled down over his face. He was looking pretty good. Sarge and Sid both said they were there to help us get out what we need to with out making a scence. We agreed and sat in silence for a minute or two.

"Geno says that he doesnt quite know how to explain to you what happened. I assure you that he didnt and hsnt done anything with Oksana beside a little dancing the other night." Sarge continued. " He also wants you to know that you mean the world to him. An he doesnt want to lose you especially not to Tangers."

"What happens with Kris and me has nothing to do with this. You were mad at me cause I couldnt make it to the game. An next thing I know you start hanging out with her again. You knew this was going to happen thats why you wouldnt tell me in Detriot. An It also explains why you were trying so hard to get me to come. You knew she would do this!" I felt a tear fall down my face.

"No. Not how happen. I care, I do. You-You amazing. I NOT want to lose you!! Had surprise for you. After game, Oksana follow home. Get shower. You come. Things get messed up."

"I know you care but sometimes I just dont know anymore. Why did you even invite her to the game? To replace me? To maybe make yourself fell better?"

"No. You not lisen. Not how happen. she show up. Had pass. Try surprise me. Didnt work. She try get back me." He sighed. " I try get rid her. She no go. Sarge try help. No luck."

"I did try even got security. The only thing we could do was keep her from the locker room. Cause she did have the pass." Sergei looked at me then to Geno.

"See. No lie."

"Okay but I still dont know. Sidney can I talk to you for a second."

"Yeah lets go over here." He pointed over to a empty table.

He looked at me then over to Evgeni.

"I saw the way you looked at him. You dont think you can trust him do you? An I saw the way you looked at Kris this morning to. Is there something else there other then what I was hoping for."

"I dont think I could trust him not as long as she is around, in his life and in contact with him. When I woke up with Max/Kris this morning I had this feeling that I have NEVER had before. But I dont know if it was good or bad. Honestly I dont know what to do! PLEASE HELP ME SID!" I begged.

chapter 14

" I am SO sorry Cuz. I just thought they were friends and that he would tell you about her or intro you. I didnt know he had her at the house with him. I didnt want to start something I knew nothing about and end up upsetting you. An then nothing be going on with them. An yes that ment everything to me."

"Whatever Sid I would have felt better that you told me instead of finding out from someone else when you knew. That is the hole problem with that."

Kris interrupted...

"Let's get out of here. This DJ sucks."

"I think he is fine, and I just got here! Come on lets ALL go dance." I tried to pull them towards the dance floor.

"I dont really feel like dancing right now." He said anxiously. Motioning over to Sidney.

I looked at Sidney then tried to find what they were trying to avoid. Evgeni and Oksana had just walked in. An I was fine with the fact they were there after all I told him to have fun with her. But she so went through my clothes at the house because she had on my favorite dress. Uhh.. Who wears another girls clothes with out asking her first.....??? Thats what really set me off. He saw me looking at him and are eyes locked once again. I could tell that he didnt want to be here, an defidently not like that. She followed his gaze to me. Kissed him and then started laughing, rubbing her hands down the dress. I was not amused. But Whatever I wasnt going to let her bother me.

Renaee, Tyler, Sid, Kris, Max, Jordan, Chris and I all hit the floor together. I saw that Oksana had left and gone up to the VIP Lounge, and Geno was heading my way. Thank God that Sidney seen him and moved in front of him and started a conversation with him because it could have been bad. An as if they had it planned Max, Kris, And Jordan all surrounded me and moved me to the other side.

Later that night, The guys all ended up staying at my house. Renaee and Tyler dissapeared but we all knew they had gone to the guest room, they both were trashed so they probally wont remeber what happened. Jordan and Chris went downstairs to the game room, to supposivley 'get a beer' but they were down there for ever!!! Max and Kris headed straight to the X-box 360, an started playing NHL 09. Sidney was out in the kitchen so I figured I would go talk to him some more.

When I walked in his facial expression was blank I just couldnt read it.

"Sidney I am sorry for blowing up on you earlier I should have just asked you calmly why you didnt tell me."

"It's fine. But there is something more important we need to talk about then that."

"Geno?" I asked looking down at the floor.

"Yeah. At Diesel he wanted to talk to you so badly. But I told him he had to talk threw me. He agreed and told me to tell you that he wants you back." He stared at me intenitally. "You should have seen him at his interview the other day. They wouldnt drop the subject of you. He looked misrable and he eventually began to cry and walk away. I think you should at least talk to him."

"Alright. But we never have the chance. Were never alone." I sat down on the counter facing him.

"I can call him and see if he has time to come over or met us somewhere. An another thing whats going on with you and Kris? An why the hell did Max and Jordan both come and ask me to help them with you?"

"Alright that works. WHAT!!! Max and Jordan BOTH asked you to help them get with me??? An as for Kris I guess he really liked me and Hes fun to be around and he has been with me through this hole ordeal." I couldnt help but smile thinking about everything we had gone through this past couple weeks.

"Well I guess I will have to talk to him to." He smiled. " An yes they did I told them no though. An I will go call."

As I waited for his return I thought about what I would say to him when I saw him. How I felt. Maybe I didnt want him back. I Kind of liked hanging out with the other guys, and flirting with them, It was fun! I mean that takes alot to do that to there teammate, and be here with me.

Sidneys POV

As I left the room to call Geno. I looked back at Ciera who was looking down at the floor in a deep thought. I hope she is able to work this out and if not that they can be friends. It would be hard cause she is gonna see him alot. I felt terrible, I might have been able to stop all of this. What if I would have said something to him. Maybe got him to call and tell her she was here. He finnally picked up.

"H-hello?" He stuttered.

"Evgeni, It is Sidney. What are you doing right now?"

"was sleeping, you woke me up." he groaned.

"Oh I am sorry. Is she with you?" I asked with care trying not to piss him off.

"No!!! Make her GO!!" He said frustrated.

"Oh well she wants to talk about all of this. When do you want to met?"

"She...She want talk?" He asked with a surprise sound in his voice.

"Yeah. We just talked." I paced outside.

"It to late now. Tommarow morning. We met?"

"Alright. Ill text you tommarow with location."

I hung up and walked back in to the kitchen.

"Ciera."

"Hmm." she looked up at me.

"He said tommarow. I woke him uo he was sleeping."

"Ohh alright..."

"I think I'm gonna head to bed....Wake me up tommarow when you are ready to go."

"Will do." I kissed her forehead and told her goodnight. I walked with her to the steps but we parted as I walked into the Living room with the rest of the guys as she headed up stairs.

Sunday morning I woke up with Kris and Max laying on both sides of me, with Kris's arms around me. I turned slowly to Kris trying not to wake either of them. They both looked adorable while sleeping. I started playing with Kris's hair that was in his face, which must have woken him up.

"Good Morning Beautiful" he smiled as he opened his eyes.

"Hello. Umm what happened last night?"

"Sid sent me up here last night after we talked. He gave me permission but I wasnt planning on it at all. You were already asleep when I walked in, I am sorry if you didnt want me here." He looked over at Max, " An I guess he came in after I did."

"Oh really. It is fine. If I didnt want you here I would have kicked you of the bed instead of playing with your hair." I laughed which woke up Max.

"Hey Max." I turned over to him.

"Well Hello." He wiped his eyes and looked under the blanket. "I probally should go downstairs before Crosby wakes up." He said with a sad look on his face.

Kris and I both laughed as he walked out the door.

chapter 13

After they were done Renaee and I were outside waiting for the guys to come out. TK took forever, When we saw Geno come out I texted Kris asking where they were and that we needed to go ASAP! He came up to me and imediately are eyes locked. They looked so sincere and sad.

"Sorry. nothing happen. Promise. Told you, you see when friend come."

"Yeah well you forgot to mention it was your EX- FIANCE!!!" I screamed.

Sarge heard me yelling all the way across the parking lot and hurried over to help Evgeni. I looked at him and told him to tell Evgeni that,I cant deal with this right now. I really need to think about things and that he can have fun with Oksana because I have given up on him. Kris and Tyler walked out and stepped between Geno and us as Sergei was telling him what I said. I looked down to see that he was forming fist at his sides and getting a really pissed off look on his face.

"Lets go girls." Tyler pushed us into the car.

Friday morning Renaee called.

"Were getting you out of the house for some fun. I am outside. using my key. An I am coming in."

Next thing I know she is pulling the covers off of me.

"I dont want to go."

"I dont care." She snaped.

She pulled me up and out of bed.

"Lets go shopping!"

"Alright I will do that."

I got a shower and got dressed, and we were headed for Grove City Prime Outlets. Tyler had called Renaee while we were shopping telling her that we were ALL going out when they get back from Detriot.

"Im not sure I should go what if Evgeni is there?"

"Then you show him what he lost. An plus Tangers want you to go. He really does like you and I know you used to like him to before Jenny. So maybe god is giving you your second chance with him."

"I dont even have anything to wear."

"How about we go get that sexy dress you found the other day."

That night we watched the boys game on TV at Vero's. They lost but it was coming back to Pitt for game 6.

Saturday night had finally came. Even thought they didnt get in till like 2am they were still out partying. Renaee said she would pick me up around 1am. I was finishing getting ready just as she walked in.

"Damm you look FINE! Come on we are going to show you a good time."

When we arrived at the club most of the guys had already grabbed there girls and were dancing. I waved to them all out on the dance floor and headed straight for Sidney. We still hadnt talked since the day I found out. He had been avoiding me at all cost. An it totally sucked cause I really missed him.

"How could you not tell me? Did you think I wouldnt find out and everythin would be okay? We promised we would tell each other everything no matter what it was about or who it involved.

Did that mean anything to you?"